Post by Rocky on Aug 27, 2010 21:45:10 GMT -6
Hey. Most of you probably recognize my name, but I also see new members whove probably never met me, only heard of me in many fables and stories that have been formed to revel in my amazing historical achievments 
LOL
So yea, its me Rocky and I wanted to say I really want to become active again. The reason for my inactivity is many things, but ill only concentrate on the main few..
Back in April, the twentieth to be precise, my Grandmum was told she had stage four lung cancer, stage 2 kidney cancer and stage 3 adrenal gland cancer. I don't know if anybody knows this but my Grandmum was very dear to me, indeed. She was easily my best friend, and always new what to say, when to say it, and how to say it. She could always make me grin, even when I was in the worst of moods. Strangely, the chemotherapy and radiation was working wonders on the cancer, shrinking it and revealing results that you very rarely see. Then, when she started to smile and laugh with me again, she developed a virus that her already compromised immune system could not stop. Eight hours later, on June 2, at 4:14 am she passed away.
I was handling it in a way I never thought I would handle her death; i hadnt shed a tear for days on end, and just sat silent in school, at home, at parties that many of my friends invited me to to cheer me up, then the one person who cheered me up, this girl I cared for so much and who, in return, cared for me as equally, if not more, and I started dating. Everything was going well, and then I was having mixed feelings. Later that day on June 2, at the school I attended and the school my grandmum had taught at, she was announced to the student body that she had passed. My girlfriend had hugged me and it felt like everything was going to be okay. Two months later, I told her how awful I felt about relieing on her so much, and not realizing that she was glad to help me. She took it the wrong way, felt i didnt like talking to her, and broke up with me.
I cried.
I know you all may think "Hes a selfish fool! Crying over a girl and not his grandmum!" But at that moment, it seemed to me the people closest to me kept leaving and not returning, and at that moment, I knew i wouldnt have my grandmum to help me threw it.
I transferred to a new school to get a fresh beginning at a place where no one knew my story. I signed up with the football team and became their second string Right Guard on varsity, which was shocking because few sophmores there made varsity. Im not trying to impress anyone by adding that, just saying I was doing my best and I was genuinely happy with the outcome. Then, one day my Mum was arguing and saying she was having so much trouble financially without my grandmums paycheck to help out and I decided, "Forget football.. My family needs me." So Ive been applieing to several jobs to help my family financially. I gave up being a football star Sophmore year to help my family, and it was worth it
Now I dont feel like explaining anything else, no offense, its just its still a little raw to me. Ive been going through stuff no 15 year old kid should even have to worry about, but now, I decided to join back up at roleplaying, as I have amazing friends here, who I am still happy to see RPing! ;D
-Rocky
LOL So yea, its me Rocky and I wanted to say I really want to become active again. The reason for my inactivity is many things, but ill only concentrate on the main few..
Back in April, the twentieth to be precise, my Grandmum was told she had stage four lung cancer, stage 2 kidney cancer and stage 3 adrenal gland cancer. I don't know if anybody knows this but my Grandmum was very dear to me, indeed. She was easily my best friend, and always new what to say, when to say it, and how to say it. She could always make me grin, even when I was in the worst of moods. Strangely, the chemotherapy and radiation was working wonders on the cancer, shrinking it and revealing results that you very rarely see. Then, when she started to smile and laugh with me again, she developed a virus that her already compromised immune system could not stop. Eight hours later, on June 2, at 4:14 am she passed away.
I was handling it in a way I never thought I would handle her death; i hadnt shed a tear for days on end, and just sat silent in school, at home, at parties that many of my friends invited me to to cheer me up, then the one person who cheered me up, this girl I cared for so much and who, in return, cared for me as equally, if not more, and I started dating. Everything was going well, and then I was having mixed feelings. Later that day on June 2, at the school I attended and the school my grandmum had taught at, she was announced to the student body that she had passed. My girlfriend had hugged me and it felt like everything was going to be okay. Two months later, I told her how awful I felt about relieing on her so much, and not realizing that she was glad to help me. She took it the wrong way, felt i didnt like talking to her, and broke up with me.
I cried.
I know you all may think "Hes a selfish fool! Crying over a girl and not his grandmum!" But at that moment, it seemed to me the people closest to me kept leaving and not returning, and at that moment, I knew i wouldnt have my grandmum to help me threw it.
I transferred to a new school to get a fresh beginning at a place where no one knew my story. I signed up with the football team and became their second string Right Guard on varsity, which was shocking because few sophmores there made varsity. Im not trying to impress anyone by adding that, just saying I was doing my best and I was genuinely happy with the outcome. Then, one day my Mum was arguing and saying she was having so much trouble financially without my grandmums paycheck to help out and I decided, "Forget football.. My family needs me." So Ive been applieing to several jobs to help my family financially. I gave up being a football star Sophmore year to help my family, and it was worth it
Now I dont feel like explaining anything else, no offense, its just its still a little raw to me. Ive been going through stuff no 15 year old kid should even have to worry about, but now, I decided to join back up at roleplaying, as I have amazing friends here, who I am still happy to see RPing! ;D
-Rocky
